So my life is getting more complicated the more time I spend with her. On one hand I’m totally excited and happy to have her back in my life, in any aspect, but I find myself falling into a trap. I want her, I want to be with her.
She sent me a text last time (Valentine’s Day) we hung out and she said that she wanted me to be more affectionate- cuz I held back as to not offend- but I guess that was the wrong thing to do. Then this time I try to re-kindle whatever romance we used to have, and kissing her was like an awkward goodbye kiss on a date neither one of the parties really want to be on.
It’s driving me crazy. I want to explode and tell her how much I’ve missed her and how badly I want to be with her, but I know that she already knows so I think she’s not really interested in someone who’s so into her. But I fear if I pull back, play hard to get, to bait her into being into me more she’ll just think I’m not interested and go for someone else. It’s like being in highschool all over again, and I usually don’t put this much effort into starting a relationship (or in this case re-starting.) I don’t know where we go from here.
It’s been 291 days since you said goodbye… and I’m still bleeding.
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